Tomorrow is my daughter’s first day to school & I am having butterflies in my stomach. I don’t know how she is going to take it, how I am going to take it. She is my 2nd child so its not as if the situation is new for me, I have already faced it. Leaving my 2 yr son crying or rather howling at his full pitch & coming back was a torture for me as well. I remember my son as a very hyperactive child, he kept me on my toes 25hrs a day. So his going to preschool for a mere 2 hr seemed to me a relief. I planned out my schedule quiet enthusiastically. How I could finish off the important chores & then go for some reading, some surfing etc…. but when I came home & opened the door & that was it. The house seemed so empty & I didn’t feel like doing anything. I started feeling guilty for leaving my 2 yr old crying in the hands of strangers, I felt like a devil & a very bad mother.” Oh! He is still so small, we should have waited till he was 3, will he keep crying for the entire 2 hrs, did he have something & so on & on &….the thoughts kept pinching me. I made a cup of tea & stood in the balcony glancing at the watch as the seconds passed by. Just kept counting when the earliest I could leave to get him back.
6 years on & time is back again but this time I am not planning anything for my 2 hrs free time cause I know the feeling. Its going to be tough for me as well. I have got so used to her, clinging on to me--mama this--mama that. No matter how angry you get at times or loose your patience but you just tend to catch up when she jumps on me & hugs me tight & looks at me with the feeling that she is in safe hands, the blind trust that a child has in you the security she feels when she is with me is all I can feel & I am going to miss that even if its for 2 hrs.
Though we tried to prepare her mentally by giving her the idea how you will go with the bag, the bottle, snack box etc…. the toys there to play, the friends & mama will be back home for short time just like bhaiya goes, but I still doubt whether my 2.5 yr old has understood & is ready for it, rather more so whether mama is ready for it. Irrespective of whether your child is 2, 2.5 or 3 the feeling is same the feeling is same when your kid goes to school for the first time. He is always too small for us & we will always be very protective about our kids. So right now I think I need to prepare myself more than her.
Howdy, I think this time around it will be different. Second children are different. Mine just waved bye and didn't even turn back - just went about painting. No tears at all. Very unlike my first one - who cried for a whole month - and finally the director told me to pull him out of the school! :) Good luck! Keep us posted!
ReplyDeleteHi noon, lucky, my second one also behaved like my first one.but my elder one cried for only week 10 days hopefully she will also settle by now
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